its about not forcing, but consistent alignment let go, release and detach from your plans, “intentions” just be - allow yourself to rot and exist no judgement here, only observe allow the natural energy flow on its own.
im recharging right now. a soundscape, flow state essential oils of cedarwood and balsam my safe cave where imagination can run wild where i can embody being Jerry Cai
focus on your environment. take a shower, light a candle. clean up your house. make it smell nice. Set your mind right … before diving into “work”, “studying” or any intellecutal task. When you’re pushing hard in work and theres high resistance (think Junior year, or workaholism) look at other parts of your life → social support systems, friendships, call to vent your frustrations and get a new perspective.
Often times of being stuck are believing in a false dichotomy that paralyzes when in reality, both sides of tension can simultaneously exist. Conversation, talking, verbalizing your fears - often is enough to get un-stuck.
when you feel repeated resistance diminishing returns, where hooke’s law - more effort increases resistance take a step back. release. just observe.
what new years means for me
there is something about escaping the mass manufactured holidays. the excess consumerism, media attention towards new years. the social pressure to go out, celebrate, drink at bars.
when the true gift is being at peace about your intentions this year. about the core values, risks, moments of courage and hard decisions.
i prefer being in my personal sanctuary during the last few moments of the previous year, leading into the new. i love reflecting on my life, my priorities - without the noise of society my heart is already full, knowing i have incredible people in my life supporting my journey